Colton had alot going on these past couple months. He is crawling, walking along furniture, and hugging and kissing on command. The sweetest thing in the world to a momma!! This crazy child of mine may look alot like his father, but luckily (and perhaps unfortunately) he has my personality and gracefulness (or lack there of). My kid has crawled into walls, slammed face first into doors, tables and the floor on several occasions. I am probably one of the clumsiest people in the world, and I am seeing the same patterns with Colton. Any given day he has new bumps, welps, scratches, bruises, scabs, knots and cuts in random places on his body. You can only imagine the looks I get when in public lol. So today, my little brother was playing on the Wii and accidently smacked Colton in the forehead with the remote, while dancing to Michael Jackson (awesome game btw). Tomorrow I have to take Colton to the hospital for a chest xray (get to that later) and now he has a HUGE red lump above his right eyebrow. All I can do is laugh about this because I am so honestly terrified these people are going to assume the worst. But what can I do? Nothing. Ugh, this is only the tip of the iceberg.
About two weeks ago I came down with strep throat and the day after I went to the dr, I noticed it was much, much worse. So I decided to visit him again to double check the diagnoses. (I don't like this dr, and it was my first time using him). Before i walked out the door Colton began running a fever. Like 100.7 or something around there. (it got up to like 103.7 a couple days later). This dr was a family physician so he looked at my kid too (convenient for me) and diagnosed him with RSV. I was freaking the hell out because, as you may know, this is a very serious illness for babies. I immediately began filling this baby up with the medications prescribed and no changes were hapeneing. So a couple days later I took him to his pediatrician to confirm with him. One simple test from a nasal swab ruled out RSV. I was instantly relieved. But the doc had me get Colton an xray of his lungs to prove he had Pneumonia. Which he did. So having a 9-10 month old with Pneumonia isn't fun. Especially when I had such a bad case of strep (We always stay home; in about a month we only went to Gattis...I wonder where we got sick from?). Luckily it was caught early and he is just fine now. Quite a bit thinner than before, but still healthy. But seriously, how did this "doctor" not test this baby for RSV if it is as simple as testing snot?? Let's not even get me started on that.
Then, of course, there is this never ending drama with baby daddy. We are together, we aren't. We are. We aren't. OMG! Never thought this cycle would end. I was riding the "on" coaster when he just up and vanishes for 3 days. 3 DAYS!!! No phone call, no text...nothing. So when he pops up I chew his ass out. I'm not the quiet, shy type, if you havn't noticed yet. So before he comes back I find (in my search to discover where he was. If he was ok, alive, stranded...) I find that he is on 3 active dating sites for like 2 or 3 weeks. I am crushed. Seriously saw him Wednesday and everything was peachy. But then he takes of the next evening. So when I confront him about being a backstabbing cheater and liar he blows up on me. I seriously can't handle this crapola anymore. I HATE liars and I really don't understand cheaters. So I tell him I'm done. I have never meant anything more in my entire life. And I am a very sincere person. My heart got ripped out of my chest, stomped on, chopped into tiny pieces and thrown in the garbage disposal. Worst feeling ever. The conversation ended with me telling him not to contact me anymore. To which he replies he will about Colton. This is for real, the biggest joke of the whole story. Hahahahahahahahaha. NOW he is concerned with Colton??? Where the FUCK was he when Colton had Pneumonia???? GONE!!! Obviously he wasn't too concerned about him when he was sick! Some father, right? Oh it gets better. (I'm not angry bashing here, there are a few things that are positive...keep reading) So...
In October Chris decides he is going to up and quit his job. I was against it, but he made his own decision. So while he is "looking" for a job everyday (in my car, while I'm home with our son) I assume some progress is being made. Not even close. I am not very good at reading people I'm beginning to see. Right around Thanksgiving I find out that he sold my laptop for COCAINE!!!!!!! Talk about livid! We didn't have rent. We were already behind in all of our bills. Then I also discover when he was "looking" for jobs, he was going to his friend's house and smoking weed. Nice, I know. Me and Colton obviously left and moved back with my mom. He went to his aunts. I told him that I could forgive the drugs and the lies, if he fixed the problem at hand, being jobless. Well folks, he is still jobless 4 months later. I don't see any excuse that will make this acceptable when you have a family to take care of. Apparantly we have very different priorities. My list begins with Colton and ends with me. In between I have college and alot of other junk. Chris' list has only himself on it.
As far as taking care of Colton, I am most definitely his primary caregiver! I'm not saying Chris never helped out, because he did when I told him to. Sometimes. I took care of the cleaning, most of the cooking, and about 98% of Colton's needs. In that tiny 2% that Chris provided was mostly entertainment. He did actually bathe him once, when I made him. He did change a few diapers, when I told him to. (see? This was the positive stuff) I can recall several nights when neither of us were working and he would tell me he would get up with Colton at night so I could have a day off...then he would change his mind when the crying began. Typical Chris. Selfish, inconsiderate Chris. When I asked him a favor he would actually bargain with me. Like feeding colton would come with a 'sexual favor' or something always to his benefit. It was ridiculous. But yet he wants rights to the child I cared for, basically alone, for 10 months?? I don't think so. Not gunna happen. Told him good luck and if he did go the legal route to make sure he can pass a drug test. Oh. He isn't on the birth certificate. Soooo....whose child are we discussing??? My thoughts exactly. MINE!!!
So that's most of the drama I've been dealing with lately. I know it isn't that fascinating, but to me, it's more than I care to deal with. Tune in next time for some more baby daddy drama. I'm sure there will be some lol.
